Toxic

In honor of the Glee episode on Tuesday, appropriately titled "Britney/Brittany," I have titled this entry "Toxic." It actually goes along with the topic in which I will discuss today. But first, I would like to discuss Glee a little bit. As you have to know by now, I love Glee. I'm obsessed with the show. One day I will be on the show. For now, I buy the CDs, the DVDs and watch every Tuesday (or Wednesday on Hulu if I have work/rehearsal). Season One: Part One was fantastic. Those are the episodes from "Pilot" to "Sectionals." The writing was pretty good, and the only flashy celebrities were very critical to plot points (Victor Garber and Debra Monk as Will's parents, Kristin Chenoweth as April... Eve was a bit weird, but it worked... Josh Groban was unnecessary but I still love him). The second part of the season, "Hell-O" to "Journey," seriously lacked heart. It was all about flashy celebrities singing more songs than the actual cast members. "The Power of Madonna" was excellent, but most of the other episodes were just so-so. Things happened way too fast. I loved the song choices and ending with Journey songs again. It was a smart move for New Directions to lose the competition. Season Two is upon us now, and after the first episode, I'm still testing the waters. The new guy is absolutely unnecessary and not as talented as the seasoned Glee clubbers. The new girl, however, is amazing. The AUTO TUNE is killing me. Ryan Murphy, if you ever see this, stop auto tuning your singings. It shows that the production team has no faith in the actors on this show. If they can't sing, don't cast them! The auto tuning was out of control in the season one finale. Lea Michele does NOT need auto tune. It's absolutely nuts. Jonathan Groff auto tuned was offensive. If it ain't broke, don't fix it. Also, the guest stars need to calm down. Sure, bring Kristin back. Why not? I am excited for Carol Burnette as Sue's mom. But Susan Boyle as a lunch lady? Javier Bardem? As much as I LOVE Neil Patrick Harris... his storyline was not important enough to have him come back. Idina Menzel is supposedly returning, as is Jonathan Groff... why? Their storyline is over. Jesse graduated, and Shelby quit to raise Quinn's baby. Chill on the guests. Focus on the kids. So Glee, I have high hopes. Don't be disappointing. I think I will pee myself, though, with this Britney Spears episode. I'm so thrilled.

Now... what was I going to actually discuss before my Glee tangent? Haha, oh right. I wanted to discuss social media. But now I think I'll save it for another day when I want to blog but have nothing to discuss. Darn it, my title was really good, too. I'll have to come up with another.

Cradlesong

Another weekend of "Pippin" is behind me. I can't believe we only have two more shows. I hate the end of a show; I feel like I have nothing to do with my time. I am auditioning for the next show tonight, but we'll see how that goes. I hope you have gotten a chance to come see it if you're in town!

Today I am starting a new challenge. I have an old issue of Richmond Magazine at my desk that I flip through every now and again. Today I noticed the article about the top fifty places to eat in Richmond. Well, I love me some top (insert number here) things to (insert activity here) in (insert location here). So I have challenged myself to eat at all fifty places over the next eight months (the length of my internship) and write about it. The article has suggestions of what to get at these places, but some of the items I'd rather pass. A lot of places are close to my work, so yay I can walk!

50 Fantastic Food Finds Challenge

1. Lift Coffee Shop and Cafe

Lift is a really neat coffee shop on Broad Street. I have gone there once, but I did not order anything last time. This time I decided to go there for lunch today. The prices are very reasonable; I spent a total of $8.85 on my sandwich and side. I ordered the Chicken Pesto panini with fruit salad (I wanted pasta salad... but fruit salad is a healthier option). So yeah it's a little much for my budget as the broke intern, but it was worth it. This sandwich was everything I hoped. The provolone cheese tops off the pesto and makes for a tasty treat. The panini is not over toasted, and it's pretty solid. It tastes great! Lift has really great service, too. The people who work there were pleasant and really quick! If you're in Richmond and need a Starbucks alternative, Lift is a great option!

That's all I have for now. Stay posted. Tomorrow I'll discuss Social Media, because lately I've been obsessed like everyone else :P

Magic to Do

Weekend one of Pippin has come and gone. Now I have most of my nights free, and I don't know what to do with myself. I sat on the couch last night... all night. I love not driving to Fort Lee every single night, but I also hate not having anything to do. Once a gym membership kicks in for me, I'll start doing that right after work to give me something to do. I actually think I'm going to try out for the next show at Fort Lee called The Boy Friend... I know it's a lot of money in gas to go back and forth, but I want to do another show. I worked it out with my house management schedule, and I'd only miss a handful of rehearsals. I'd be completely there the two weeks before opening, and I wouldn't miss a show. It works out perfectly. I'm a glutton for punishment apparently, but I honestly can't do any other shows until about February or March. I enjoy acting and singing too much to be silent for months. Worse things could be wrong in my life, right? I know I complain about trivial things. But that's what makes the world go 'round. :P

So I'm watching this show called "If You Really Knew Me" on MTV. It should be trashy since it's on MTV, but it's actually awesome. It's in the vein of "True Life" but less documentary style, more typical MTV show style. These high school kids are discussing their cliques and labels. They also are discussing how they really don't fit this stereotype into which they have fallen. It's a little stereotypical in itself (the preppy girl hates her body, the jock is under a lot of pressure, the gay kid feels trapped), but then the stoner kid wants a better life and a different out. He wants to graduate HS because no one in his family has before. They are high school kids, so it makes since they are fascinated by these discoveries while most of the world already knows this. Then I realize it took me a while to figure this out just like these kids. So I've become a little inspired. Even at 22, people are still judging. People won't stop judging until the day we all die. So a lot of people see me as one thing, but in reality I'm not that at all.

So a lot of labels that come across people's lips when they think of me: popular, gay, theater, funny. They think I'm really good at what I do and that it comes natural. My family is great and I just whine a lot when things don't go my way. Well, there is more to me, and some of that is way false. First, and foremost, I am bisexual. I am not gay. I have no problems with gays, of course, but I am not gay. I have honestly thought about this for almost ten years now. I am not gay, I have never been gay, I'm never going to be gay. I am bisexual. I won't change my mind. I won't be stuck with men forever. It's harder to be legitimately bisexual when people (gays and straights) love black and white with sexuality. It hurts me when my friends say I'm not really bisexual. I don't discuss this because people have their opinions, and honestly it really hurts. I'm not confident with my sexuality; I'm terrified, which is why I don't discuss it. I feel like I actually do talk about this often, but it's usually to the same few people. If you really knew me, you'd know that my Facebook friend number does not reflect who I am. I feel like a lot of people know me, but I have very few friends. I have a great bond with some of my brothers (KDR for LIFE), and I still talk to them daily. But I'm in a weird place where I don't feel like I have a lot of friends. I went through a period in HS and college where mid-semester, I'd really feel like I had nobody to turn to or talk to for some odd reason. I just feel lonely a lot. If you really knew me, you'd know that alcohol and drugs have effected my family tremendously. Alcoholism runs in my family, and it terrifies me. Unmentioned drug problems exist, and I have seen alcoholism's destruction.

That's enough for today. Maybe tomorrow I'll dive in deeper. I have no problem with this being out in the open. I think that everyone should really dive into what makes them tick and how it makes you a stronger person. I think I've changed my focus in grad school from administration to counseling if I can. Wow. That was a big revelation. Now, I just need to STUDY FOR THE GRE. ACK!

The Song of Purple Summer

Another summer has come and gone... well, except this time, not really. It hasn't left yet. It won't depart us until September 22nd. We still have 19 days of summer left. Once Labor Day hits, though, summer as we all know it will be over (public schools are back, college has been in for a few weeks, summer work attire is over, etc). For the college graduate, summer never really has a clear beginning or ending. I know a lot of people who went to work immediately after graduation. I know more people who have been pacing, waiting for jobs. I did a bit of both this year. I graduated and started summer RA. That was just a weird limbo feeling. When I left in June, it felt like summer because I was home. When I started working again at Mondial, it felt like an even worse limbo. Once I quit Mondial, that felt like a summer job, and now I have my year job at Barksdale/TheatreIV. I've been here a week, so it feels like summer ended on Monday for me. I would not even classify this summer as "summer" because there was no time to just relax. Alright, I did a LOT in May. We went to the beach a lot, we visited Brad, so okay. MAY was summer. June was reality. July had few days of relaxation. August was a blur. Between Pippin and work, everything was crazy fast. Even my brief visit to CNU for my bday was a blur. I fully expected this, though. It was, after all, my first post-undergrad summer.

Speaking of post-undergrad, today I had a huge life changing moment. I was eating lunch on VCU's campus with my sister, and as I was walking back to my car, a huge realization came to my mind. I am making a huge transition into city life. I no longer live in the bubble of green lawns and huge buildings that separates CNU from the rest of Newport News. I no longer live or work in Short Pump suburbs. No, friends. I live and work in the city. Well, my house isn't downtown, but I am technically in the city of Richmond. I work downtown, I walk around everywhere I can (except to VCU... hell no I'm not walking). It's so new to me. I have always considered myself a city boy, but now I'm immersed in the culture and everything is so awesome. I really hope this is a good connection to wherever I go next. I really do hope so, friends.

Pippin opens a week from tomorrow! September 11, 18, 25 at 8PM and September 12, 19 and 26 at 3PM at the Fort Lee military base! Come see it if you can :)