Stars and the Moon

Well, kiddies, I'm exhausted after a 6 hour 45 minute gig as house manager of the RTCC Awards. What are the RTCC Awards, you say? Oh you didn't... well, I'll tell you anyway! The Richmond Theatre Critics Circle get together and come up with some awards and nominations to celebrate the year in Richmond theater. It was really great, just really long and tiresome. Sound of Music by my company (Barksdale/TheatreIV) won a bunch, RENT by Firehouse won a bunch as well. One of my favorite musicals, The 25th Annual Putman Co. Spelling Bee as produced by Barksdale, performed "I Love You Song," and I absolutely loved it. It was the best performance of the night, and it reminded me of why I love that show so much. The award show frenzy made me fall in love with theater all over again. Every so often, when I get tired and worn out and want to forget this business, something like this happens to reaffirm my love for the theater. The one thing I think I'm missing from my internship, though, is the acting side. It's weird to say that because so far I've done two shows since graduating (Pippin and currently The Boy Friend). I realized, though, as I was chatting with my beloved stage mom from Pippin/our choreographer for those two shows that after November, I won't be in a show until potentially June. That's seven months of no acting/singing. That could be very detrimental to my career. There are still a few shows that haven't held auditions as of yet, so I'm going to argue my case with my boss man. That's not too much to ask, is it? I don't think so...

We had a staff meeting today to discuss some of the events that happened during and after the awards involving things that should not have been said because it makes the person and the company look bad. It got me thinking about perception, a word that I've heard a lot over the past few months. Perception really is key, and if someone sees that you have said some nasty things, they'll attribute that to you if not forever then for a darn long time. So I've decided to finally watch what I say on Twitter and Facebook. I think I've been doing a good job lately with that, but there's always room for improvement. I can't help it (if I'm so popular... sorry I couldn't resist) if I have an opinion, but I can help how it is broadcast.

Teenage Dream

I started writing a blog entry and stopped, something I do quite often actually. But lucky for me, it is similar to what I want to discuss today. It's October... it's mid-October. I tend to get really depressed in October. Fall Break usually helped... but real world equals no Fall Break. No Thanksgiving break. No Winter Break. Anyway, focus. October. I always feel so down, and I don't know why. It's like clockwork every year. I usually blow it off, though. It's mostly stress related, and I'm really stressed right now with work and The Boy Friend. Things keep changing or have no structure at all. It's driving me bananas. I like having a daily agenda of what I need to get done. I don't like down time, but I don't like my down time getting interrupted by trivial tasks I didn't schedule already. Honestly, I feel like I'm on duty every night I have to house manage. And this one lady has the most ANNOYING voice; hearing her talking makes me want to rip out my hair. Rwar, I said it. Phew I feel better, haha. I think the weather is getting me down; it sure is starting to get me sick. I think I'm pushing myself too hard. Running constantly, ignoring myself. I do it frequently. I make about $5 and hour, yet I work at least $12 an hour days. It'd be fine if I didn't have rent to pay or gas to put into my car.

Stop complaining. I'm tired of complaining, but I have no one I can talk to in Richmond. I'm screaming on the inside and can't let it out. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. Still silent, regardless of how many capital A's.